I am trying to cut back or even shut off my emotions as an attempt to stop the highs and lows of this emotional rollercoaster. It's not working out very well.
Chris, I believe that you've already discovered that the above is impossible to do. Let me add that I also believe that attempting to do so is also extremely unhealthy. It's like telling yourself not to think about something. That is what you'll begin thinking about. Likewise, when you try to suppress your feelings, their hold over you becomes greater, not less.