CalBob,
I know it's unhealthy. You're right on the mark with that, but I have those days that I'm at the point that I rather not feel anything at all. I don't want to shut down, that was never me, until now. I use to joke, laugh, and really enjoy life, I'm just not use to hurting like this, not even with all my wife has done. I quess this is something I'll learn to live with. Thanks for the advice.chris