I was thinking about something and wanted to see if others have found similar things..
I was married from the age of 16 to the age of 42....43 when the divorce was final. During each of those years we lived together, I felt so content with
where my place in life and my place in the world was....I BELONGED. As a military wife, we relocated, but each new town was an adventure...afterall....I had
a HOME, not a house, but a HOME where I was the heart, the central figure...the planner, organizer, responsible for everything that went on from meals to
bills being paid. Now,.,I did neglect myself and never found out who I was....but I was content and thought I knew what the rest of my life would be....the
best laid plans I guess..
Now....I am stretching myself, still finding what makes me tick and seeking that contentment again...a place where I know I am where I belong in life, in the
world...I really do miss that contentment, and I know I will find it again...and I know contentment is a process and not a destination....
So many, many changes in a year.....loss of a marriage I believed was solid, loss of the fairytale, loss of my HOME that I built over 26 years, but finding
ME....reconnecting with my family of origin, pushing my kids to grow up more and become more independent and allowing a deep friendship to grow into
something more...moving from a very temperate climate to a much cooler one...leaving all I know behind....exploring a new place....both exciting and sad at
the same time...
I find that I have to push myself a little to seek what makes me tick and not fall back into the trap of everything revolves around my "duties" as
being in the "wife" roll.....and to be proactive in seeking what makes me feel like I BELONG .....like I make a difference in the world in a
positive way....a place of contentment.
Have others found it difficult to find that contentment again, and if you did find it, how was it different than the contentment you felt as a wife and/or
mother?
Lisa




